"EMOTIONAL TRAUMA IS SOMETHING MANY OF US WILL EXPERIENCE AT SOME POINT IN OUR LIVES..."
......and the goal is figuring how to get through the pain of suffering that follows. Through pain we often rediscover our purpose. Starting this project certainly awakened a lot within me. Helping others has always been something that has helped me through my own struggles. Being an empath has helped connect me to so many people because I genuinely feel and relate to others so deeply. I know how it feels to be betrayed. I know what it is to experience loss. I know what it is to feel like the world is ending.
I know what it feels like to not be able to get out of bed. Having recently gone through a deep depression due to loss and betrayal, I know what it is like to feel as if each day is covered with an ugly, heavy, gray cloud. I was simply going through the motions but not truly LIVING. The feeling was similar to drowning: you can’t breathe and maybe you can see the surface but just can’t seem to reach it for some air. Some days would be a calm, quiet cry that lasted for hours and other days would be full on anxiety and panic.
It’s unlike a regular break up in that you don’t have any good memories to fondly look back on. You realize it was all a lie. I learned right after leaving my fiancé that his infidelity wasn’t a one time thing as he had lead everyone to believe (and which prompted the break up,) but in fact it took place during every week of our years long relationship: from the day we started dating until the end. I had been gaslighted and made to feel crazy for a long time. Worse yet, I was still being emotionally abused and punished for leaving.
I needed to take what was helping me remain centered during the pain and use it as a way to help others. After a few months I was able to push through the excruciating pain and started sharing methods of healing that were working for me with people who reached out to me on my social media pages.